"Just Say No......."

Is what you were told as a child if someone asked you to do drugs. It was constantly beat into your head that drugs are bad. Death was the only end result. What you didn't learn until you were much older that all drugs, while habit forming, are not bad. But on the other hand, too much of a good thing is indeed bad for you.....

Kanye West asked, " What's your addiction? Is it money, is it girls, is it weed? I've been afflicted, not one, not two, but all three." I've prided myself on not having an addictive personality. Other than food, nothing else has brought me such pleasure (but we gotta eat to live, right?) I never understood how someone could let something cloud their judgment and take over.

I think I have found my addiction and the withdrawal is a mofo.

I first felt this high a few weeks ago. I expected it to be good, but what I got was mind blowing and soul stirring. The first time I divulged in my new found narcotic, I went somewhere so high and so far that Yahweh had to tell me "AYE BITCH...YOU TRIPPIN". The first time I felt the rush... that euphoria course through my body, I knew that this was something that I NEEDED. This exceeded all expectations. I remained on this trip for 2 days and I still feel the after effects to this day. I went on more than just a physical ride. I was mentally intoxicated the entire duration of my high, which was intensified 100x over when I was able to share what I felt with another. Whoever said drugs were bad, lied...or they were holding all the good shit for themselves.

But what are you to do when it isn't easily accessible? When you have to go through hell and high water to have another taste of sin? How do you deal with a craving so deep, so intense it HURTS? I've had my ups and down with my issue....BUT FUCK....how do I shake this shit?!

But what if I don't wanna say no?